Lindsay C. Cutshall
[09/09/81 - 08/15/04]

Lindsay & Jason
Jason S. Allen
[05/16/78 - 08/15/04]

♥ "The sun is going down on the horizon, and all I see is the beams shining on the cliff face, and I know that God is awesome. I look around and see His Creation all around me." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "As I stir this Mac & Cheese, I think to myself, what a wonderful life. I've just spent two awesome days with my fiance, Lindsay. Can life ever be so perfect? Only with a person who is so great. God gives me this privilege in life and He has given me a wonderful woman to enjoy it with." --Jason ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Live for things in heaven, not on earth." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Heaven will be a wonderful place of no suffering, hurt, loneliness; it's a great thing to look forward to." --Lindsay ♥

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Birthday message from Jason's mom...

Here is a birthday message from Jason's mom, Delores, in honor of his memory today:

It doesn't seem that long ago that I held him in my arms for the first time. Little did we know what God had in store for him, but I knew God had a plan and would use him in a special way. God gave him to us for a season, a short season, then took him home for eternity. Lindsay was part of the plan. Their work was finished. They had completed everything God had intended for them to do. They left a legacy, a testimony to shine a light for others to follow. We are proud to be called their parents.

There are no birthdays in heaven, yet we celebrate his 26 years here on earth. I guess he will always be 26 to us. We look forward to being together again with Jason and Lindsay, where there will be no more good-byes. That is the hope we have in Christ!

"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away." [Revelation 21:4]

Happy 31st Birthday Jason!

Today is Jason's birthday... he would have been 31 today.

Instead of being sad, I am looking for ways to find joy -- to celebrate the life that Jason lived while he was here and to celebrate the amazing ways that God has blessed people through his life and even through his death.

I heard on the radio a short time ago an interview with Christian music artist Tammy Trent. Back in September of 2001, her husband of 10 years, Trent Lenderink, was involved in a fatal diving accident during a trip to Jamaica. Tammy tearfully recalled what happened. (I could not find a transcript of the interview, but I did find these quotes from her online that parallel what she said.)

"Something was terribly wrong. Trent, free diving in Jamaica's Blue Lagoon, had not come up for air. After 45 minutes, I began to worry. After an hour, I was frantic. Rescue divers began searching for him. I went in the back of the restaurant at the Blue Lagoon, where I found myself lifting my hands towards heaven, crying out to God to help me. I stayed at the Blue Lagoon the entire time that they searched for Trent. After three hours, they had to call off the search because it was getting dark. That night, they took me to the nearby home of two doctors. I was up all night talking to family, friends and pastors.

On the morning of Sept. 11, they recovered the body of my husband, Trent, from the Blue Lagoon. He died of multiple contusions to the back of his head.

I remember falling to the floor screaming and crying. All I could say was, 'Jesus, what happened? Trent, baby, what happened? What went wrong? How could this possibly be good for my life? What do I do now? What am I supposed to do?' All our lives Trent and I had looked to God for guidance, for wisdom, for comfort. And so, even though my heart was breaking and I couldn't understand how He would allow such a thing to happen, I knew I didn't want to run away from God. Desperate to cling to the only thing I knew was true, I found myself crying out to Him, 'There are a million questions, and I don¹t understand any of this.' As my body ached with sadness and confusion, I just kept asking God to remind me that He was real."

Tammy went on to say that God completely amazed her in how He carried her through the pain and the anguish. Though she still misses Trent terribly, she continues to hold tight to God's promises of heaven and the reality that she will see Trent again someday. She still does not fully understand why God let it happen but she says that God has given her strength that can only come from Him and that God has really used her story to touch people's hearts and change people's lives. Then she said something that I really related to well. She said that she would NEVER consider Trent's death a blessing... but she is so grateful that God could use this tragic story to help other people find Christ. The fact that so much good can come from something that heartbreaking is a true testament to God's grace!

I can't tell you how much I felt I could relate to what Tammy said! Although the circumstances are different, the reaction is the same. I have SO many questions for God. I want to know why He didn't stop Jason & Lindsay from being murdered. I want to know why He didn't spare their families this incredible heartache and loss! But then I can see, somewhat, the "bigger picture" that our sovereign God sees. Jason & Lindsay wanted to reach lost people for Christ with their lives... and now, by God's grace, they are actually fulfilling that mission through their deaths. It is amazing to think about... but that does not mean that I am glad that Jason & Lindsay died. It is such a bittersweet thing. I want them back. I wish they were still here! I wish I didn't have to have a reason to write a memorial website for a dear friend I shared my childhood with. But God never said that life would be easy. He only said that He'd carry us through it... and He has, indeed, been faithful. If nothing else, this pain makes us long for heaven... and long for an eternity in the presence of our loving Savior. Thank you, Jesus, for your gift of Salvation! We are lost without You!

With that said, to honor Jason's memory today on his 31st birthday, I want to share with you a wonderful truth! Here is one very recent (and AMAZING) example of a life changed through Jason & Lindsay's story that brings me so much joy!:

Back in December of 2006, a brave young woman from Brazil found this memorial website after hearing about Jason & Lindsay's story in the "Our Daily Bread" publication. She listened to Lindsay's dad's audio message called "For Such a Time as This" and got in touch with the Cutshalls. Over time, through many e-mails, she shared her life story with them. Without going into too many details, she had a lot of anger and confusion toward God because she had been very hurt and betrayed by people in her life who called themselves Christians. Their attitude toward her made her, understandably, very angry over the years. Just last week, Lindsay's parents flew down to Brazil to spend a week with her to counsel her, pray with her, and share the gospel with her in person. And last week Thursday, May 7, she accepted Christ! Praise God!!! :)

 
Here are her words:
"My life has been touched by some great and loving people. I'm here in Brazil and they are in the USA, however, Jason and Lindsay made us a family.
I am not the same person I was and I thank God first. He broke those strong walls around me and continues to break them. I am finally breathing the reality of this life and of God. It was and still is a miracle!
I thank all of you in the USA who spent so much time praying for me. I love you all. It was a wonderful and loving week here in Brazil. Plenty of love!!!"


How AMAZING is it to see God still continuing to reach lost people for Christ through Jason & Lindsay's story?!? God is so awesome!!!

Happy 31st Birthday Jason!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

God's Grace...

I know it's been a long time since I've posted anything... it's just that there's nothing new to post! (At least nothing new in terms of updates on the investigation.) In a way, it's disappointing and sad... but that has nothing to do with the investigators. They are amazing and are doing the best they can with the leads that come their way. God bless them!

This August it will be 5 years since Jason & Lindsay died and I am truly amazed (and grateful) at how many people are still interested in their story! I added a webpage counter and a visitor map to this site back in August (2008) and I am astounded at the traffic this page receives! I do hear from a lot of people (via e-mail) that they heard about this story through the E! channel's documentary that re-airs from time to time. I am pleased to hear that since that documentary did a very good job of accurately representing Jason & Lindsay's true character. There has been other media coverage in the past few years (both in print and in video) that has not been so accurate and that really bothers me. I don't like to see Jason & Lindsay inaccurately portrayed since they are no longer here to defend themselves. (If you read through the archives on this site, you'll see commentary regarding all of that.)

With that said, I am so encouraged at how God has used this story to touch people's lives! I know that I've said this countless times before... but it continues to amaze me. It's truly a testament to God's grace that something as horrible as a double murder of two completely innocent people can be used to do good in the lives of others. Jason & Lindsay lived a life dedicated to serving the Lord and through their deaths, their lives became an example of remarkable faith. Their families also display this same powerful faith in a way that defies explanation, apart from God's presence in their lives. So, although I wish so much that Jason & Lindsay had not been killed, I am grateful that God has brought a large measure of comfort through the way people keep learning about Christ because of their story. God works miracles even through tragedies like this one. What didn't make sense to me now does, in a way. But I still continue to pray for justice. There is a cold-blooded killer out there who is a danger to society and needs to take responsibility for his/her actions!

So, I just wanted to thank all of you who have shown an interest in Jason & Lindsay's story. I hope that, someday, perhaps even with the help of any of you, we may find justice for them. Someone out there knows something! Someone out there knows who did this and I pray that they find the courage to come forward.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Lindsay's 27th Birthday!


Lindsay at Donner Lake in California, near Lake Tahoe.
Summer 2004 (I love this picture!)

Today is Lindsay's birthday... she would have been 27 today! I wish I would have had the chance to get to know her. I had only met her once. At least I know that I will get the chance to know her in heaven! All of eternity awaits us. :) So, this year... to honor her memory, I asked her family to write something for me to post here. Here is a note from her father:

"On Lindsay's birthday, four years after being taken from us, our thoughts are focused on her past earthly life with us and her present eternal life with the Lord in her heavenly home -- but that's not too different from most days. Our great love for our precious daughter will never diminish but her beauty in Christ will continue to increase. Kathy and I recently returned from a visit to California where we spent time with the family that was converted to Christ because of Lindsay and Jason. Once again God proved Himself faithful to the promise that He causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose, which is being conformed to the image of His Son, Jesus Christ (Romans 8:28-29). We also visited our detectives who are still very committed to our case. We discovered that they needed to see us as much as we needed to see them. It was a time of mutual encouragement. We continue to be very proud of them. We also visited the camp where our children served so faithfully when they were taken home. There at the memorial we wept and glorified God together for His sovereign grace. Kathy and I continue to be very proud of Lindsay and Jason. They lived well and died holy and live forever! And we continue to hollow the name of our Father in heaven and exalt the name of our Savior and Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for your prayers for us. God has been good to answer them. May He greatly bless you."

There's an awesome song by Steven Curtis Chapman called "With Hope" that is about the painful loss of someone dearly loved. In light of the devastating tragedy that he and his family have recently endured, I'm sure these words mean much more now. Here is the main chorus of the song that I love... and I wanted to share it now to reflect what Lindsay's father wrote above:

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
There's a place where we'll see your face again...

And because of God's promises, we know that to be true. As believers in Christ and His death on the cross to pay the penalty of our sins... we are now clothed in righteousness before God. We cannot earn it... it is a gift that only Christ could give. And in accepting that gift, we are promised eternity in heaven. We can rest assured in that.


♥ Happy Birthday Lindsay! ♥

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Low-budget movie to be made...

Recently, it has been made known that there is an amateur filmmaker from Santa Rosa, California, who wants to re-create Jason & Lindsay's murders for a movie he's making. In my personal opinion, it is extremely disrespectful... despite his claims that he's going to represent the story in a "fictionalized way" and in "the most tasteful manner." Being that he is from Santa Rosa... and everyone in that community is extremely familiar with this murder case... it will be lost on no one which story he is recreating on film. So any freedoms he decides to take with their story will easily be taken as an actual event or fact and could seriously damage Jason & Lindsay's character.

Here's the article:

SR filmmaker touches on 2004 Jenner slayings:
Murdered couple's story part of plot in Cardinal Newman grad's low-budget thriller

Thursday, July 31, 2008


By DEREK J. MOORE | Santa Rosa Press Democrat

As fog gathers on the horizon, a lone figure stands on a bluff overlooking a beach north of Jenner and snaps photos of the vanishing sun.

The young woman is a Sacramento actress playing the part of a devoutly Christian 20-something who visits the beach with her older fiance. Later that night, they are shot to death as they sleep on the sand.

If that scenario sounds familiar, it's because a young Christian couple was killed in shocking fashion on the beach in 2004.

The unsolved case still resonates and is just one of many interesting angles Santa Rosa filmmaker Aron Campisano plans to use in the couple's story on the big screen.

The low-budget effort reflects the relative ease with which people can bring cinematic art to life in the Internet age, as well as the risks inherent in fictionalizing gut-wrenching, true-life events that are still fresh in memory.

The 38-year-old graduate of Cardinal Newman High School and New York University's film school said the tragic story of Jason Allen and Lindsay Cutshall is one element in a movie he described as a "Hitchcock-like thriller" about young people who realize they've been killed and struggle to understand what happened.

"It's not like 'America's Most Wanted,'" he said. "I'm not trying to replicate what happened or document it. It's just going to be a reflection of those characters."

Campisano's previous venture, a yet-to-be-released low-budget movie called "The Master Plan" that some deemed to be critical of Christianity -- coupled with his own personal views about religion -- have raised concern about his intentions among the families of the dead couple and investigators on the case.

Campisano said he does not want to offend anyone.

"My intention from day one was to represent, in a fictionalized way, what occurred there in the most tasteful manner," he said. "There are no action scenes. There are no death scenes. It's not a documentary-style film of actual events. It makes references to things through images."

He described the project, titled "Adventure!!!," as being more philosophical in nature than religious, as opposed to "The Master Plan," which he said some friends and relatives thought had an anti-religious bent. He described himself as agnostic and suspicious of organized belief.

Campisano said he was intrigued that the families of Allen and Cutshall saw their deaths as being part of God's plan, when his view of their actions is more jaundiced.

"They were pushing boundaries in their lives," he said. "They're Christian youth counselors who are painted as idealistic icons in death, as a lot of people are. But if you look at what they did that day, they were illegally camping on the beach, which they knew they shouldn't do."

Family members of the couple are wary of Campisano's efforts.

"Obviously it is going to reflect on our kids one way or another, perhaps negatively, perhaps positively or perhaps both," said Chris Cutshall, Lindsay's father and pastor of a church in rural Ohio. "I would be a little concerned on how that would reflect on us and them, and especially on God."

His daughter, who was 22 when she was killed, spent the summer of 2004 with Allen, 26, at a Christian whitewater rafting camp in El Dorado County, where they worked as youth counselors and rafting guides.

They were killed on what was supposed to be their final weekend in California before heading home and getting married.

Authorities said someone shot the pair each once in the head with a rifle as they lay in separate sleeping bags on what Jenner locals refer to as Fishhead or Driftwood Beach.

Despite hundreds of tips, several potential suspects and a $50,000 reward issued by Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger, the case continues to baffle local residents and investigators.

The Sonoma County Sheriff's Department continues to actively work the case as the fourth anniversary of the killings approaches in mid-August, Capt. Dave Edmonds said.

He said the department has not received any requests in that time for assistance with a book or movie related to the slayings.

Edmonds said such endeavors can have the positive effect of generating renewed interest in a case. But he echoed the concerns of the families in saying that such publicity can also cause more pain if done in poor taste.

Campisano said he is prevented by legal reasons from hewing too closely to actual events, as he does not own the rights to the story.

Whether the film is made at all or picked up for distribution is another story altogether. Campisano said it took him four years to wrap up "The Master Plan," which may have its premiere at an East Coast film festival this year.

Campisano said he's living with his parents while bankrolling his new venture using "private equity." He represents a new breed of artists who, armed with a video camera, access to the Internet and some technical skill, can call themselves filmmakers.

He said "Adventure!!!" pays homage to some of his favorite movies, including "The Sixth Sense" and "Memento." The exclamation points in the title reflect the way many young people communicate using copious amounts of punctuation, he said.

Campisano used an ad on the free Internet site Craigslist to find actors for the movie's trailer, which he shot last weekend. He hopes to film more scenes in October.

The ad described the character of "Jay" as being in his mid-20s, outdoorsy and having strong Christian beliefs. "Lisa," his younger fiancee, is a free spirit, still in college, who tends to keep to herself and was raised in the Midwest.

The parts are played by Evan Owen, an actor from Los Angeles, and Nicole Mosbacher, who is from Sacramento.

In addition to filming in and around Jenner last Sunday, Campisano and his actors went to San Francisco's Fisherman's Wharf on Saturday to film scenes there.

In real life, Cutshall and Allen visited Pier 39 on their way to Jenner. Authorities recovered Cutshall's camera and photos she took of the beach where the couple spent the night.

"Adventure!!!" also will explore Campisano's interest in the natural world, and how inconsequential human life is in the grander scheme of things. He said it's a lesson he learned while watching his 58-year-old father's ongoing battle with pancreatic cancer.

"I guess I found it a little profound that only people care about what happened to Jason and Lindsay," he said via e-mail. "Only people try to make sense of it. Only people rationalize this way or that way. In time, the ocean washes it all away, and nature remains."


My direct response to Aron Campisano:

Regarding your criticism pointing out that Jason & Lindsay slept on a beach where it was illegal to do so... 1) I don't even know if it was posted anywhere on that beach that it was illegal to camp out there (and even if it was, they may or may not have seen it) and 2) even if they did know, if that's the worst of their offenses, that does not imply that they are completely shady or inauthentic. Our fond reflections of them and their lives are accurate... not hyped. It may seem that, in death, many people are set upon a pedestal... but there is no exaggeration when it comes to what we've said about Jason & Lindsay. No, they weren't perfect... no one is... but they were extremely devoted to living for Jesus in ways that outshine the rest of us by a long shot, myself included. Please don't jump to conclusions based upon such a measly accusation and then presume that they weren't as we say they were. It certainly does not give you the right to make a movie about the crime that ended their lives and then paint it in your own light. My deep concern is that your portrayal of what happened will damage Jason & Lindsay's character somehow. You need to make it CLEAR that this is your OWN version of what happened and that it is fictional. My goodness... even in the last segment featuring Jason & Lindsay's case on America's Most Wanted, they took a "reenactment scene" from a completely different story that they thought somehow fit this one too, and made it look like Jason & Lindsay were sleeping together on that beach. I got e-mails from people, just based on that brief reenactment scene, that were accusatory of Jason & Lindsay because they were incorrectly portrayed. Jason & Lindsay were in separate individual sleeping bags and an autopsy even showed that Lindsay was still pure... because they were trying to determine whether or not their killer had raped her. So... you may have the legal right to make this film, but you have the RESPONSIBILITY not to. Simply changing the characters' names to "Jay" and "Lisa" isn't doing anyone any favors. To profit off of the horrific murders of two people who were dearly loved and are dearly missed... especially when the crime is unsolved... is abhorrent. That's just my opinion. It is indecent to make money off of someone else's heartbreak.

At the very LEAST... I believe it is your duty to let Jason & Lindsay's families watch your finished film before anyone else does. Because it doesn't matter that this film is supposed to be fictional and that the characters names have been mildly modified... it still reflects directly upon Jason & Lindsay's lives and deaths. You can't argue any differently.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Sonoma County Press Release

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Jenner Double Homicide Investigation
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Posted Tuesday, August 19, 2008 at 1:12 PM
Jenner Double Homicide Investigation
Fourth Anniversary


This week marks the fourth anniversary of the murder of Jason Allen and Lindsay Cutshall. The bodies of 22 year-old Lindsay Cutshall and 26 year-old Jason Allen were located on a beach just north of Jenner, California on August 18th, 2004. Cutshall and Allen each died of gunshot wounds to the head. The weapon used in the crime is believed to be a .45 caliber Marlin rifle, a semi-automatic or lever action. This weapon has not been recovered.

Both Cutshall and Allen were Christian missionaries, who had been working at a Christian Camp in El Dorado County, They were due to be married in September, 2004.

On Monday, August 16, 2004, a missing persons report was filed with the El Dorado County Sheriff’s Department when the couple failed to return from a weekend trip. Their bodies were discovered two days later on Fish Head Beach, near Jenner.

The case has attracted international attention and information regarding the investigation has been aired on America’s Most Wanted and 20 Most Shocking Unsolved Crimes.

To date, over twelve hundred tips have been fielded and entered into a law enforcement database. Each of these tips has been followed-up on. Every week new tips continue to come in and are entered into the database and followed-up on as well.

This case has been an on-going investigation, which the Sheriff’s Department remains committed to solving, by bringing the responsible person(s) to justice.

Currently, there is $60,000.00 of reward money for information leading to the arrest and conviction of the person(s) responsible for this crime. Governor Schwarzenegger’s Office has offered $50,000.00 and the Carole Sund/Carrington Foundation has offered $10,000.00.

Press Release prepared by Sergeant Tim Duke

For questions regarding this press release, contact Sgt Tim Duke at (707) 565-2185. Reference Crime Report #040818-034.

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