Lindsay C. Cutshall
[09/09/81 - 08/15/04]

Lindsay & Jason
Jason S. Allen
[05/16/78 - 08/15/04]

♥ "The sun is going down on the horizon, and all I see is the beams shining on the cliff face, and I know that God is awesome. I look around and see His Creation all around me." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "As I stir this Mac & Cheese, I think to myself, what a wonderful life. I've just spent two awesome days with my fiance, Lindsay. Can life ever be so perfect? Only with a person who is so great. God gives me this privilege in life and He has given me a wonderful woman to enjoy it with." --Jason ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Live for things in heaven, not on earth." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Heaven will be a wonderful place of no suffering, hurt, loneliness; it's a great thing to look forward to." --Lindsay ♥

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Jason's 37th Birthday!

Jason posing in front of the Golden Gate Bridge. This photo was taken on the day he & Lindsay died.

Today Jason would have turned 37. Every year, on this day, I find myself wondering what might have been. What would he & Lindsay be up to? Would their dreams for their future have come to fruition? Or would God have led them in a different direction? Sometimes we have dreams & plans for what we want our lives to look like but that can change dramatically as time goes on. Maybe you go to college to be a doctor but then end up being a teacher. Or maybe you were sure you'd never want children but end up with 7! :) Things change because people change when their circumstances change. So, because of that... I often wonder what Jason & Lindsay’s lives would look like now if their lives had not been cut short. Jason was so young... only 26 when he died. He had so much he was looking forward to! He was with the love of his life, enjoying that beautiful sunset. In less than a month, he was to marry her. He was blissful... completely unaware of what was about to happen. I don’t like to think about what happened. I try to push it out of my mind. What matters now is that he & Lindsay are in heaven. They are taken care of and they are SAFE. No one can hurt them where they are.

Today, I wish to honor Jason’s life by honoring the faith by which he lived. He had a special calling. Not many people have little to no interest in material possessions. He readily cast aside material things for his love of ministry work in God’s “great outdoors,” which was a passion he shared with Lindsay. They both found joy in serving God by working with youth... to instill a love of nature in them as well. I love to think about the adventures they are both having with Caleb! (Caleb is Jason’s precious nephew who passed away back in October.) As much as it shattered my heart to watch Jason’s family endure another unimaginable tragedy, it brings joy to my heart to know that Caleb is with his Uncle Jason & Aunt Lindsay and having a blast! :) I praise God for that!

I know I’ve posted about this before, but Jason’s mom has written a book (currently available in digital format on iTunes & Etsy). It is so beautifully written and it offers insight into almost every aspect of Jason & Lindsay’s story. Please check it out if you’re interested in this case! It is well worth the read!

For Jason’s birthday today, his mom has written this beautiful tribute:

Happy 37th Birthday Jason!!!!!

Today we fondly remember the blessed joy of welcoming you into our lives. Along with that joy, came the overwhelming realization of the responsibility of nurturing a soul, who would one day be accountable to God.

In our hearts, we knew we could not accomplish the task alone. That is why we surrendered you to our loving heavenly Father, to be used by Him, for His glory. We did not know the path that our act of surrender would take. In the end, it was a painful path for us, but only temporarily. There is no greater joy than knowing you are safe and secure with our heavenly Father, and you are living the life that you were always meant to live: a life of love, joy, peace, wonder, adventure, laughter, learning, and worshipping our Savior. We look forward to sharing that with you someday. In the meantime, we celebrate your time here on earth.

We love you.

Mom and Dad

Happy Birthday Jason! You will never be forgotten! I continue to pray and never give up hope that there will be justice for you & Lindsay someday soon!

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Sweet baby Caleb...

"Wrapped in the color of royalty,
Caleb is safe in the arms of The King."

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On Friday night, October 10, I attended a memorial service for a precious baby boy. He is the son of Jason's sister Elizabeth... which means he is Jason & Lindsay's nephew. Caleb Robert was born on October 2 and lived for 10 miraculous hours. He died in his mother's arms in the early morning hours of October 3.

Let me tell you, Caleb has an amazing life story! God has shone brightly throughout his relatively brief time on earth. Earlier on in Liz's pregnancy, an ultrasound revealed some abnormalities in Caleb's little body that were a cause for concern. Follow-up bloodwork revealed that her unborn son had Trisomy 18... a chromosomal anomaly that, sadly, causes internal birth defects that are incompatible with life outside the womb. The news, for obvious reasons, was extremely devastating. We all wondered why God would allow this precious family to suffer yet another unimaginable loss.

Yet God, in His Amazing Grace, carried Liz and her husband and two children through this difficult journey in a powerful and merciful way. His presence brought peace in the midst of this heartbreaking situation. Here is a quote from Liz from July 19:

"For those who have not heard, two weeks ago, our baby, who is due Oct. 12, was diagnosed with Trisomy 18. This means he has an extra #18 chromosome. This is the worst news possible and means that he will not survive after birth. Please pray for our family, as this is very difficult for us. God has shown Himself to us already. One night I had prayed to God to reveal Himself to me and give me strength. The next day, after a very difficult conversation with my OB-GYN doctor and my pastor, I was sitting on my front porch, when a bald eagle circled over me four times and landed in a tree near me. I was reminded of the verse Isaiah 40:31. I have no doubt God answered my prayer."

"... but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." ~Isaiah 40:31

Bald eagles became a way that God revealed his presence. Liz saw them more than once when she was outside (in various locations in Michigan), while praying for strength from God. They are not a common sight here. This was definitely a sign from God which I am in awe of!

(The cover of the program at Caleb's Memorial Service.)

This is also a sign of God tenderly carrying them through this difficult journey...

On September 5, Liz wrote:

"It definitely is getting harder the closer it gets to my due date. I know God is with me. I am thankful for all He has shown me. For those that don't know, our son's name is going to be Caleb Robert. I felt like God was wanting me to call him Caleb. I loved the name. After we found out that our son had a hole in his heart, I looked up the biblical meaning of "Caleb." The meaning was "wholehearted." I knew then that his name should be Caleb. His heart will be whole again and his whole heart will be for the Lord. And Robert is after my dad and Howie's dad. This is the time that Caleb is alive here on earth. We wanted to pray for him specifically by name and talk to our children about him by his name."

On October 2, Caleb was born via scheduled C-section. Because doctor's didn't expect him to survive for more than only a few minutes, they didn't clean him up but instead handed him straight to Liz so she could hold him. He was blue, but miraculously, he started to breathe and his color returned to normal! Caleb's heart had multiple defects... not just one hole. Therefore, his survival for 10 hours is a true miracle! Countless people had been praying for Liz throughout her pregnancy, and Liz herself was praying that Caleb would survive long enough to meet his brother and sister. God graciously answered that prayer.

After Liz & Howie's family and children got to meet Caleb, they left and Liz & Howie were alone with their precious newborn son. A short while later, Caleb passed away in his beautiful mother's arms.

Caleb's short life is such a great reminder of the sanctity of human life! He was and is a child deeply loved by his parents, siblings, and extended family... and most of all, God Himself! And while it is a devastating reality that he is not here... God gives us all a hope-filled and peace-filled joy knowing that he is whole and in the presence of Jesus. Not only that, but Jason & Lindsay are experiencing the joy of being an uncle and aunt to Caleb. They have not had that privilege yet, but now they do!

So this is my tribute to Caleb's life. His life meant something! He taught us about what is truly important in life versus what is trivial. He was and is a precious gift from God. We will never forget him and he will always hold a special place in our hearts... and one day, we will see him in heaven! I think his reunion with his mom & dad will be especially sweet. He will run into their arms and thank them for the life they gave him.

Some of Liz's friends set up a fundraiser site to help them pay for medical and additional expenses. If you feel so led, you can contribute at the link below. Thank you so much & God bless!

YouCaring Fundraiser Site

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Lindsay's 33rd Birthday and the 10th Wedding Date Anniversary...

Beautiful Lindsay standing in awe of the splendor of God's creation. She truly, truly appreciated the beauty of nature.

Today is Lindsay's birthday. She would have turned 33. Ten years ago she would have turned 23 today and would have been eagerly anticipating her wedding in 2 days! Here is what the wedding announcement looked like:

I still find it truly devastating that this day never came to fruition for them. Something she and Jason were both so excited about was stolen from them... for no reason whatsoever. They had no enemies. Whoever took their lives was a coward with a sick desire to kill. I pray every day for justice for Jason & Lindsay but also for the soul of their killer. While I despise what he did... God still loves him. God offers mercy to everyone in the form of salvation in Christ. But to receive that, we have to humble ourselves before Him, confess our sins, take responsibility for them and then humbly receive the mercy of salvation through Christ.

Recently, I read an article about the brutal murders of actress Sharon Tate and several of her friends back in 1969. In that case too, the victims were completely innocent. They had done nothing to deserve what happened to them. Members of Charles Manson's cult committed these brutal murders upon his command. After Manson and the killers were caught, convicted and sent to prison, some of the killers had become extremely remorseful for what they had done and deeply regretted their role in the murders. Their remorse led to them turning to God for forgiveness and then accepting Christ... and they completely turned their lives around! While they will never get out of prison in this lifetime, they have found freedom for their souls in the forgiveness and redemption in Christ... and they have been given an eternity of freedom in heaven. What they did was abhorrent and completely evil... but God still forgave them. God showed mercy. One of the killers, Charles "Tex" Watson, even started a prison ministry that thrives to this day! Here is the website:

Abounding Love Ministries

I think this is completely awesome! Out of something completely evil, God brought something beautiful. He does that often and he has done that in the aftermath of Jason & Lindsay's murders in so many ways! It would bring me great joy to see their killer have a transformation like this. For their killer to turn his life around, accept responsibility for his actions (which would lift a huge burden from his shoulders) and then dedicate his life to Christ... that would be the greatest outcome! I pray that does happen. If he is still alive, this is a possibility.

In honor of Lindsay's birthday and her memory, let us all remember her beauty... both inside and out. Let us all pray for her family & Jason's family as they live through the 10th anniversary of her birthday (since her death) and the upcoming 10th anniversary of what would have been her & Jason's wedding. Let us all give praise to God for His gift of forgiveness and salvation and His ability to bring beauty from ashes... light out of darkness... restoration and healing out of brokenness... and joy out of sorrow. Lindsay lived her life in a way that honored God. I will forever remember that every time I think of her. What a beautiful soul!

Lindsay at Rock-N-Water, 2004

Here is a sweet poem that Lindsay's mom wrote for the memorial service in California last month:

Jason and Lindsay

They were so young and full of life, Just days away from becoming husband and wife.

Taking God's love to a faraway place, Doing what they enjoyed, full in His grace.

Sharing the Word, a hug and a smile, To children who hadn't known that in a while.

Daring to do what God required of them, Fearless, adventurous, sold out for Him!

Ten years have passed since that horrific day, They live on in our lives in an amazing way.

So many loved ones gather here on Fish Head Beach, Because our hearts want to feel within Your sweet reach.

I thought this mother's heart would just crumble to pieces, But then I found that the Holy Spirit shows a love that never ceases.

What Satan meant for evil desires and lies, God has turned into more spiritual lives.

Look, we are all here, from FBC folks, to family, your college friends, and Rock-N-Water ‘04 staff, We are full of tears and smiles and even at Jason's old jokes do we dare to laugh.

We'll never forget their lives well lived, Too short, yet sweet, always willing to give.

Now... a tear, a sorrow, a huge ache of pain, Expected and necessary... their honor, our gain.

These two, Jason and Lindsay, humble and pure, Having lived their lives with faith in God so sure.

He is proud of them and we are too, They lifted up Jesus as He taught us to do.

Embraced in His arms and each other's this day, Gives us hope and assurance each step of the way.

You two would have been such a great Uncle and Aunt, The losers are Jackson, Lucas, Jalynn and Grant.

Let memories live on in the heart of each dear friend, As we look forward to heaven to be together again.

I will be with you one day... it may be soon, it may be late, All I ask, dear children, is that you meet me at the gate.

Remembering and Loving Lindsay and Jason

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

Book written by Jason's mom...

Exciting news today! Jason's mom, Delores, has written a book that is now available in digital format. The description and links to downloads are below. These e-books are available for only 99 cents!


In August 2004, Christians Jason Allen and Lindsay Cutshall were murdered on a remote beach in northern California. Follow Jason’s parents as they guide you through their greatest trial in life and journey into healing by the grace of God who gives them hope in place of hopelessness and peace in place of despair.

Individuals with iBooks on their home computer or iPad can download the digital e-book here.


You can download a PDF copy here.

An Android (Kindle/Nook) version is not yet available but should be soon! I will update this post once it is made available.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Memorial Service...

On the morning of August 15, last week Friday, there was a beautiful memorial service held on a small beach not far from the one where Jason & Lindsay died on 10 years earlier. This beach was easier to access, which is why it was chosen for the memorial service. However, the family and several others later traveled to Fish Head Beach, which is where Jason & Lindsay died. The following is a great article from the Santa Rosa Press Democrat (PDF version here) with highlights and photos:

Couple Slain in Jenner Remembered — 10 Years Later


THE PRESS DEMOCRAT ~ August 15, 2014

Kathy and Chris Cutshall remember their daughter Lindsay Cutshall Friday, Aug. 15, 2014 during a memorial service at Goat Rock for their daughter and her fiance Jason Allen, who were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

JENNER — In a moment that combined both a mother’s love and a mother’s loss, Kathy Cutshall raised the flowers to her lips, kissed the bouquet and laid it on the sand where her 22-year-old daughter, Lindsay, was killed a decade earlier.

A separate bunch of blossoms fastened to a simple cane cross lay on the spot where Lindsay’s fiance, Jason Allen, 26, died.

The couple’s bodies were found three days after their deaths at the makeshift beach campsite where they had slept side-by-side.

Gathered in that place Friday on the 10th anniversary of the young couple’s death, family members and other loved ones revisited that dark time when the pair was found after disappearing on a weekend away from the Christian camp near Placerville where they worked.

But those assembled Friday celebrated more than they mourned, rejoicing in the couple’s love and in the enduring faith that has allowed friends and family to carry on, confident that Lindsay and Jason are in a better place where they all one day will be united.

“What happened on that beach... it isn’t the whole story,” Lindsay’s sister, Kerry Croghan, 36, said during an earlier memorial service a short way down the coast at Goat Rock Beach.

“When Satan struck them down, God raised them up,” Lindsay’s father, Chris Cutshall, said.

The Cutshalls — Chris, Kathy, Croghan, her husband, Ben, and their two little boys, all from Fresno, Ohio — were among 50 people who came together from across the continent Friday to honor Lindsay and Jason, whose deaths on the beach below Jenner in 2004 struck fear in the coastal community.

Among them were the camp directors and others from Rock-N-Water, the El Dorado County camp where the engaged couple shared their devout faith and outdoor adventures with young campers in the weeks before their chilling end.

There were close friends and classmates from Appalachian Bible College in West Virginia, and members of the faith family from Fresno (Ohio) Bible Church, where Chris Cutshall is pastor. Others came from as far away as Toronto.

One college friend, Christine Perdue, took a Greyhound bus cross-country from West Virginia to be with the Cutshalls and express her continuing love and support.

“It was very important to be here,” said Karie Zeager, Lindsay’s close friend and would-be bridesmaid, now of Lancaster, Pa.

Several detectives and others from the Sonoma County Sheriff’s Office who have worked the case over the years also attended, including Sheriff Steve Freitas, who became deeply religious after meeting the Cutshalls and on Friday called his religious rebirth “evidence of God’s plan.”

“Only God’s love can take a thing like this and make good out of it,” Freitas said during halting remarks at the service.

Jason Allen’s parents, Delores and Bob Allen of Zeeland, Mich., were unable to come to California. But they sent a message to be read aloud, and said they and other family members would stand on the shore of Lake Michigan in solidarity with those who traveled to the West Coast.

That family and friends should be on the beach as they marked 10 years since the still-unsolved murders occurred was the idea of Kathy Cutshall, who always had regretted never going beyond the top of the bluff and down to the beach where her daughter and a man she now thinks of as a son spent their last earthly moments. That so many others could and would join them wasn’t necessarily anticipated.

But because Fish Head Beach is down such a steep and challenging path from Highway 1, they decided to hold the memorial service at nearby Goat Rock State Beach, which is more readily accessible, the Cutshalls said.

Many arrived shortly before 8 a.m. for a special time of reflection in which, under the guidance of Northern California “earthscape” artist Andreas Amador, they used narrow rakes to trace huge flowers across a large expanse of beach, along with the message, “Lindsay & Jason, Never good-bye,” and “Maranatha,” Greek for “Lord come quickly.”

Kerry Croghan said she learned about Amador through a friend’s posting on Facebook months ago and immediately thought, “This would be amazing to do as part of the memorial,” she said. It provided a chance “to do something beautiful, and not just focus on the negative of the loss and what happened, but on how beautiful their life was,” Croghan said.

“It’s a healing thing,” Perdue said.

Kathy Cutshall said she and her family have spent previous anniversaries of the slaying with the Allens, who they said supported her need to go down to the beach this year.

“I just wanted to be in that last spot where she was last on Earth,” Kathy Cutshall said of her daughter, “and it just meant something to me to sit there and see the view and see what she saw. I couldn’t think of any other place I wanted to be on the 10th-year anniversary.”

When it was time to caravan up Highway 1 from Goat Rock for the hike to Fish Head Beach, about half of the group made the trip, recalling once they arrived at the site the words Jason and Lindsay had penned on their last night alive — Lindsay observing what she described as an awesome God in the sunset’s reflection on the cliff face above the beach; Jason cooking macaroni and cheese and reflecting on his wonderful life and “the wonderful woman” God had brought to him.

Gazing on Friday across the beach and out to sea, where two sea lions frolicked against the sound of shorebirds and rising surf, Chris Cutshall said, “You can see why they came here.”

It was he and his wife who lingered longest, kneeling where they laid the flowers, praying and reflecting on what happened there.

“There wasn’t any closure here today at all,” Chris Cutshall later said. “We already had that. But it just brought a sense of OK. It’s OK. We’ve done what we needed to do today.”

A memorial for Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock, Friday Aug. 15, 2014. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris Cutshall and Kathy Cutshall with family and friends, Friday, Aug. 15, 2014 as they give remembrance for daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Sonoma County Sheriff Steve Freitas talks with relatives and friends of the Cutshall family, Friday Aug. 15, during a memorial for Lindsay Cutshall and Jason Allen at Goat Rock. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Craig Lomax embraces Cathy Cutshall as they mourn Cutshall's daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock. Lomax is the executive director of the adventure camp where Jason & Lindsay worked, "Rock-n-Water." (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Adam and Sierra Turner listen to a sermon by Chris Cutshall Friday Aug. 15, 2014 at Goat Rock as they mourn Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen. Adam Turner worked with Lindsay and Jason. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris Cutshall surveys sand art done by family and friends or his daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance, Jason Allen, at Goat Rock. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Sand art done by family and friends, Friday Aug. 15, 2014 for Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Kathy Cutshall creates a sand heart Friday, Aug. 15, 2014 for her daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Family and friends give remembrance to Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock after making sand art. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris Cutshall walks down a hillside Friday August 15, 2014 as he prepares to give remembrance for daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris Cutshall and Kathy Cutshall help each other down a hillside Friday, Aug. 15, 2014 as they prepare to give remembrance for daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Goat Rock. The two were slain on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Craig Lomax joins Chris and Cathy Cutshall Friday Aug. 15, 2014 as they prepare to place flowers for the Cutshalls' daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris and Cathy Cutshall join Sonoma County Sheriff's Sgt. Dave Thompson, Friday Aug. 15, 2014, as they place flowers for Cutshall's daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

The Cutshalls, Chris and Kathy, mourn their daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Fish Head Beach Friday, Aug. 15, 2014. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

The Cutshalls, left, embrace Sonoma County Sheriff's Sgts. Tim Duke and Dave Thompson, right, Friday Aug. 15, 2014 as they mourn Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen at Fish Head Beach. The two were slain there 10 years ago. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris Cutshall is joined by friends and family Friday Aug. 15, 2014 as they sing for Cutshall's daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen on Fish Head Beach. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Chris Cutshall and Kathy Cutshall give remembrance for their daughter Lindsay Cutshall and her fiance Jason Allen on Fish Head Beach just north of Jenner. (Kent Porter / Press Democrat)

Friday, August 15, 2014

Ten years!

A decade. That's how long this has been a reality.

Ten years ago, two humble, adventurous and faith-filled people were murdered. They did nothing to deserve it. It was unprovoked. (How threatening could two people sleeping on a beach be?) Their last words recorded were in a journal that had been previously left on that beach for visitors to sign. They were happy! They were in awe of God and full of joy that they would be married soon! They were blissfully unaware that the unthinkable was about to happen.

There is some consolation in knowing that they didn't see it coming. They weren't in distress. They had no idea that someone with completely evil intentions was about to take their lives. Due to the nature of their injuries, their deaths were swift. So they fell asleep and suddenly they were meeting Jesus face-to-face! That is a beautiful truth that is so comforting... but it doesn't negate the fact that there needs to be justice. Not revenge, but justice.

However, in recognition of this 10-year mark, I want to write about my memories of Jason... to write about his LIFE. He was hilarious and so much fun when we were growing up! Even as a kid, he was adventurous and LOVED to be outside! We were always out in the woods, playing in the yard, climbing trees, riding our bikes on trails, etc. It didn't surprise me that his love for the outdoors continued on into his adulthood. He had (and still does) the most amazing family! Jason was essentially my first real friend. There are pictures of us together at 2 years old. I don't remember a time in my life when I didn't know who Jason Allen was. :) So that's why his sudden and horrifying death affected me so much. I just never EVER imagined anything like that could hit so close to home. It ripped my heart out. :( When I go back and re-read some of my first posts, I can't help but cry because the words bring me right back there and I feel the heaviness of that grief. But 10 years on, I can truly say that God has been so faithful to not let satan have any victories in this tragedy. God brought beautiful things from something that was meant only to destroy. Jason & Lindsay dreamed of starting their own ministry. In death, God has let that ministry continue, albeit in a different way than they had planned. But if they have any idea of how their story has become a ministry of sorts, and how it has changed people's lives for the better because they have come to know Christ... I know they would be so humbled and honored!

For two young adults who traded material possessions to serve the Lord in the great outdoors, they weren't interested in any type of recognition or fame. They loved the ministries they worked in, where they could work with kids and show them the great fun and adventure you can have in God's creation! Tying ministry together with outdoor adventure... for them you couldn't get any better than that. That was their passion and they were living it! They were the real deal! They lived to serve the Lord. So when the sadness creeps in and I'm tempted to focus on the tragedy of their deaths instead of the beauty of their lives, I imagine Jason & Lindsay having a blast in heaven... having the greatest adventures ever... and that one day we will get to join them in that. Beauty from ashes.

Here are photos of them that I will leave uncaptioned. I just want you all to look at them and see their faces. They were real people who were dearly loved and are truly missed. They lived to serve God and serve others. They were funny and fun-loving. They were kind and compassionate. They did nothing to deserve what was done to them.

Please pray for justice for Jason & Lindsay! Not only because their killer needs to be held accountable for what he did, but to protect anyone else who may be in danger. I pray that someone reading this knows something about who did this. If you are that person, PLEASE do the right thing and come forward! There is still a $50,000 reward from the State of California for information that will lead detectives to the killer. Ten years is too long. These families deserve answers.


Here is a beautiful tribute from Jason's family that is to be read at the memorial service in Jenner, California today:

Psalm 98:

"O sing to the Lord a new song, for He has done wonderful things, His right hand and His holy arm have gained the victory for Him. The Lord has made known His salvation; He has revealed His righteousness in the sight of the nations. He has remembered His lovingkindness and His faithfulness to the house of Israel. All the ends of the earth have seen the salvation of our God.

Shout joyfully to the Lord, all the earth! Break forth and sing for joy and sing praises. Sing praises to the Lord with the lyre, with the lyre and the sound of melody. With trumpets and the sound of the horn, shout joyfully before the King, the Lord.

Let the sea roar and all it contains, the world and those who dwell in it. Let the rivers clap their hands, let the mountains sing together for joy before the Lord, for He is coming to judge the earth; He will judge the world with righteousness and the peoples with equity."

We thank you for gathering here today to remember our children. We cannot be with you physically, but as our family stands along the shores of Lake Michigan this morning, our hearts join you in spirit.

As we reflect upon Jason and Lindsay, we are reminded how blessed we are that God entrusted them to us. We also recall how their lives influenced others.

First of all, they influenced those who knew them intimately. The friendships they made were genuine and lasting. They loved adventure and were fun to be with. They knew how to enjoy God’s great outdoors. Yet, beyond that wild and crazy side, they both had a quiet reflective side — a side that directed their hearts to seek and develop a relationship with Christ. Consequently, God gave them a longing to tell others of His love and called them to ministry.

Secondly, Jason and Lindsay influenced others in their deaths. Their legacy, their testimony, has touched the hearts of many around the world. God has used this tragedy to point others to Christ. This is how we remember our children, and it has been our great comfort.

Psalm 98 is full of praise to our great God. Jason and Lindsay join in the roaring of the sea, the clapping of the rivers and the singing of the mountains. Let us rejoice with them in the salvation of the Lord, knowing we will see them again.

May Jesus Christ be praised!

Bob and Delores Allen and family

Jason Scott Allen & Lindsay Christine Cutshall

~10 years in heaven today~

Forever in our hearts... until eternity!

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