Lindsay C. Cutshall
[09/09/81 - 08/15/04]

Lindsay & Jason
Jason S. Allen
[05/16/78 - 08/15/04]

♥ "The sun is going down on the horizon, and all I see is the beams shining on the cliff face, and I know that God is awesome. I look around and see His Creation all around me." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "As I stir this Mac & Cheese, I think to myself, what a wonderful life. I've just spent two awesome days with my fiance, Lindsay. Can life ever be so perfect? Only with a person who is so great. God gives me this privilege in life and He has given me a wonderful woman to enjoy it with." --Jason ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Live for things in heaven, not on earth." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Heaven will be a wonderful place of no suffering, hurt, loneliness; it's a great thing to look forward to." --Lindsay ♥

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Jason's 37th Birthday!

Jason posing in front of the Golden Gate Bridge. This photo was taken on the day he & Lindsay died.

Today Jason would have turned 37. Every year, on this day, I find myself wondering what might have been. What would he & Lindsay be up to? Would their dreams for their future have come to fruition? Or would God have led them in a different direction? Sometimes we have dreams & plans for what we want our lives to look like but that can change dramatically as time goes on. Maybe you go to college to be a doctor but then end up being a teacher. Or maybe you were sure you'd never want children but end up with 7! :) Things change because people change when their circumstances change. So, because of that... I often wonder what Jason & Lindsay’s lives would look like now if their lives had not been cut short. Jason was so young... only 26 when he died. He had so much he was looking forward to! He was with the love of his life, enjoying that beautiful sunset. In less than a month, he was to marry her. He was blissful... completely unaware of what was about to happen. I don’t like to think about what happened. I try to push it out of my mind. What matters now is that he & Lindsay are in heaven. They are taken care of and they are SAFE. No one can hurt them where they are.

Today, I wish to honor Jason’s life by honoring the faith by which he lived. He had a special calling. Not many people have little to no interest in material possessions. He readily cast aside material things for his love of ministry work in God’s “great outdoors,” which was a passion he shared with Lindsay. They both found joy in serving God by working with youth... to instill a love of nature in them as well. I love to think about the adventures they are both having with Caleb! (Caleb is Jason’s precious nephew who passed away back in October.) As much as it shattered my heart to watch Jason’s family endure another unimaginable tragedy, it brings joy to my heart to know that Caleb is with his Uncle Jason & Aunt Lindsay and having a blast! :) I praise God for that!

I know I’ve posted about this before, but Jason’s mom has written a book (currently available in digital format on iTunes & Etsy). It is so beautifully written and it offers insight into almost every aspect of Jason & Lindsay’s story. Please check it out if you’re interested in this case! It is well worth the read!

For Jason’s birthday today, his mom has written this beautiful tribute:

Happy 37th Birthday Jason!!!!!

Today we fondly remember the blessed joy of welcoming you into our lives. Along with that joy, came the overwhelming realization of the responsibility of nurturing a soul, who would one day be accountable to God.

In our hearts, we knew we could not accomplish the task alone. That is why we surrendered you to our loving heavenly Father, to be used by Him, for His glory. We did not know the path that our act of surrender would take. In the end, it was a painful path for us, but only temporarily. There is no greater joy than knowing you are safe and secure with our heavenly Father, and you are living the life that you were always meant to live: a life of love, joy, peace, wonder, adventure, laughter, learning, and worshipping our Savior. We look forward to sharing that with you someday. In the meantime, we celebrate your time here on earth.

We love you.

Mom and Dad

Happy Birthday Jason! You will never be forgotten! I continue to pray and never give up hope that there will be justice for you & Lindsay someday soon!

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