Lindsay C. Cutshall
[09/09/81 - 08/15/04]

Lindsay & Jason
Jason S. Allen
[05/16/78 - 08/15/04]

♥ "The sun is going down on the horizon, and all I see is the beams shining on the cliff face, and I know that God is awesome. I look around and see His Creation all around me." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "As I stir this Mac & Cheese, I think to myself, what a wonderful life. I've just spent two awesome days with my fiance, Lindsay. Can life ever be so perfect? Only with a person who is so great. God gives me this privilege in life and He has given me a wonderful woman to enjoy it with." --Jason ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Live for things in heaven, not on earth." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Heaven will be a wonderful place of no suffering, hurt, loneliness; it's a great thing to look forward to." --Lindsay ♥

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Our Daily Bread

Jason's family was mentioned today in Our Daily Bread, a devotional publication written and published locally. I thought it would be worth sharing. :) They were also mentioned in another daily devotional from Our Daily Bread last October, so I will post that one as well. :) God bless!

May 30, 2007

How Long?

READ: Psalm 13

"How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?" —Psalm 13:1


My friends Bob and Delores understand what it means to wait for answers—answers that never seem to come. When their son Jason and future daughter-in-law Lindsay were murdered in August 2004, a national manhunt was undertaken to find the killer and bring him to justice. After 2 years of prayer and pursuit, there were still no tangible answers to the painful questions the two hurting families wrestled with. There was only silence.

In such times, we are vulnerable to wrong assumptions and conclusions about life, about God, and about prayer. In Psalm 13, David wrestled with the problem of unanswered prayer. He questioned why the world was so dangerous and pleaded for answers from God.

It’s a hard psalm that David sang, and it seems to be one of frustration. Yet, in the end, his doubts and fears turned to trust. Why? Because the circumstances of our struggles cannot diminish the character of God and His care for His children. In verse 5, David turned a corner. From his heart he prayed, “But I have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.”

In the pain and struggle of living without answers, we can always find comfort in our heavenly Father. —Bill Crowder


Not ours to know the reason why
Unanswered is our prayer,
But ours to wait for God’s own time—
To lift the cross we bear. —Anon.

When we pray, God wraps us in His loving arms.


And here is the one from last October. I love the last line, "God can turn tragedy into triumph." He can indeed. :)


October 28, 2006

Good Out Of Evil

READ: Romans 8:18-28

"We know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." —Romans 8:28


The events of life can challenge our trust in the Scriptures. Romans 8:28 teaches that God can bring good out of "all things." But in August 2004 "all things" seemed hard to fathom. Some longtime friends of mine contacted me and others asking prayer for their son and his fiancée who were missing. It was so out of character for Jason and Lindsay that we feared the worst. Several days later, their murdered bodies were found, just 2 weeks before their wedding.

In those troubling days, "all things" seemed incapable of including such a senseless act. Yet the victims' families were amazing in their resolve to trust Jesus Christ, reaffirming their confidence that God would graciously bring good out of great evil.

In the following months, incredible stories began to roll in. Through letters, e-mail, and phone calls, we heard of people who had seen the families' example in the media coverage and had come to Christ. Eternal destinies had been changed and lives had been won through the testimonies of Jason and Lindsay and their families.

Nothing could ever justify those murders or replace precious lives cut short. But we are drawn again to hope, for we see God's ability to bring good out of evil. —Bill Crowder


We comprehend Him not,
Yet earth and heaven tell
God sits as sovereign on the throne
And ruleth all things well. —Gerhardt

God can turn tragedy into triumph.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Jason's 29th Birthday! :)

Today is Jason's 29th birthday. So, in honor and rememberance of him, I thought I'd write a little bit about what I remember of our childhood together! :)


I remember playing outside with him and my sisters and his sisters all the time! We had a swingset and a sandbox in my backyard and a whole "lower level" back there that didn't have grass, but had just dirt, leaves and pine needles (from all of the tall trees). So sometimes we would take the pine needles and leaves and make small rows/piles in the outline of the layout of a house and pretend that we were actually in a house! :) We made borders for different "rooms" and had make-believe kitchens and bedrooms and bathrooms and we'd have so much fun!

We also had one of those long, flat hoses with tiny holes in it that was supposed to be a type of sprinkler, but my dad would put it out there so we could run around through the water on hot summer days. We had one of those "Slip-n-Slides" too that was awesome! We would run and slide on that thing for hours! There was a really cool see-saw thing in Jason's back yard that we loved... but it wasn't really a see-saw exactly. One person would sit on each end and we would alternately pull the handle bar in front of us and it would spin around! I don't know what it was called because I had never seen it anywhere before or since, but it was really cool! We also used to play a lot in our basements when the weather was cold or rainy and play "house" or create "haunted houses" or obstacle courses down there. We used to ride our bikes to our friends houses to play or to a little general store close by in order to buy candy.

And when we were young, Jason was pretty hyper and very energetic. I remember him always livening things up! He was the only boy on our street (there were a few more around the corner though) but he seemed to like it... at least he didn't seem to mind it. It was great to have him around because he got me interested in things that I probably normally wouldn't have been interested in otherwise. He liked rocks and there happened to be an older, retired man who lived at the end of our street who was a Rock & Gem guy. I don't know what his profession was, but he traveled all over the world to find rock specimens and he created these beautiful polished spheres that he also made wooden bases/stands for. He then would show them off and sell them at Rock & Gem shows. So we'd go over there a lot to watch him use the diamond saw in his garage to cut his rocks into spheres (or as close as he could get to a sphere) and then he would put them in the machine he invented that polished them into perfect spheres (which would take one to two months or more to complete). He used to give me and Jason some of the extra pieces that he cut off so we could create our own rock collections. I still have them to this day!

My favorite memory is of the red maple tree in Jason's front yard... which is still in that yard to this day. (His family no longer lives there, but my parents still live in the same house I grew up in so I see his old house all the time.) His little sister had this plastic toy picnic basket and his mom would make peanut butter & jelly sandwiches for us and we'd put them in there and tie a rope around the handles... and then we'd climb that tree all the way up, as far as we could go (to what he called the "tippy top") and we'd hoist our lunch up there and eat it! :) I LOVED doing that! It was so fun to be so high up above everything and to see the street from a different perspective. It was amazing. :)

I would give anything to re-live some of those days! Our childhood was idyllic and so full of joy! Life back then was so simple and innocent. We didn't know the pain, suffering and sinfulness that this world was/is full of... we only knew joy and happiness! I hope that all children get to experience that... at least to some extent... because I hold those memories so close to my heart! And to know that heaven offers us a world completely free of pain, suffering and sinfulness... I know that Jason & Lindsay are experiencing that pure joy now and that we will too someday soon! I can't wait!


Happy Birthday Jason! :)



Billy Graham's website has a section for spiritual Q&A and it has an excellent description of heaven:

Heaven for the Christian will be a place of glorious life that will never end. Joy inexpressible, limitless peace, pure love, beauty beyond description—that's what heaven is. Greatest of all will be the presence of God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, with whom we will enjoy fellowship forever. Loved ones who have known and loved the Lord will be there. Revelation 21:2 says, "And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband."

Mr. Graham has written: "Heaven will be a place in which its inhabitants will be freed from the fears and insecurities that plague and haunt us in the present life. No energy crisis there ... Free from the economic and financial pressures that burden us down here. Free from the fear of personal and physical harm ... No fear of personal failure ... Our relationship with Him will be intimate and direct. I'm looking forward to that glorious day of going to heaven.

"Heaven will be what we have always longed for. It will be the new social order that men dream of. All the things that have made earth unlovely and tragic will be absent in heaven. There will be no night, no death, no disease, no sorrow, no tears, no ignorance, no disappointment, no war. It will be filled with happiness, worship, love, perfection and other good qualities. Heaven will be a place to challenge the creative genius of the unfettered mind of redeemed man." Revelation 21:4 says, "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."

However, the Bible makes clear that there is only one way to heaven, and that is through repentance from sin and faith in Jesus Christ who said, "I am the way ..." (John 14:6). Jesus paid for our sins through His death on the cross. God offers us the free gift of friendship with Him in this life and eternal life in heaven when we die if we will but turn from sin and trust in Jesus as our Savior and Lord. "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved ..." (Acts 16:31).

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