Lindsay C. Cutshall
[09/09/81 - 08/15/04]

Lindsay & Jason
Jason S. Allen
[05/16/78 - 08/15/04]

♥ "The sun is going down on the horizon, and all I see is the beams shining on the cliff face, and I know that God is awesome. I look around and see His Creation all around me." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "As I stir this Mac & Cheese, I think to myself, what a wonderful life. I've just spent two awesome days with my fiance, Lindsay. Can life ever be so perfect? Only with a person who is so great. God gives me this privilege in life and He has given me a wonderful woman to enjoy it with." --Jason ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Live for things in heaven, not on earth." --Lindsay ♥                                                                                 ♥ "Heaven will be a wonderful place of no suffering, hurt, loneliness; it's a great thing to look forward to." --Lindsay ♥

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Jason's birthday...

Today, Jason would have turned 28 years old. By now, he would have been married to Lindsay for almost two years. It breaks my heart that they never got to walk down that aisle... yet there is a sweetness to knowing that they are both in heaven together.

I wish that I would have kept in better touch with Jason while he was still alive. That is something I think about often. I feel like I sort of don't have the "right" to be so affected by his and Lindsay's deaths because I wasn't as close to him at the time of his death as I once was... when we grew up together. But their tragic deaths truly have had a tremendous impact on me. I cannot possibly look at the world in the same way anymore. But I'm glad that God has not allowed me to be bitter. In fact, this whole ordeal has really made me appreciate what is most important... Jesus, Salvation, family, friends, loved ones, etc.... and it has made abundantly clear what is not at all important. And when all is said and done... I am so grateful to God for the HOPE that He gives us, as believers. We know that the loss and the grief is not everlasting... and the goodbyes are not forever... because Jesus paved the Way for us to see each other again. Praise God!!!

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Happy birthday, Jason... you are dearly missed. I pray for your family every day and I look forward to seeing you, and getting to know Lindsay, when I finally come Home.

These lyrics are so appropriate for how we all view what happened. None of us ever imagined something like this could be possible... but we found out the hard way that we are not immune. Yet there is amazing comfort in knowing that Jason & Lindsay are in heaven... and that we will get to see them again someday.

"With Hope" by Steven Curtis Chapman

This is not at all
How we thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We had so many dreams
And now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you, but ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end,
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
(There's a place by God's grace)
There's a place where we'll see your face again

And never have I known
Anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father's smile and say well done
And I imagine you
Where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now you're home
And now you're free, and ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end,
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
(There's a place by God's grace)
There's a place where we'll see your face again

We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true, so ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end,
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
(There's a place by God's grace)
There's a place where we'll see your face again...

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Me & Jason at age 2.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

New Press Release!

Today, a new press release was issued by the Sonoma County Sheriff's Department regarding Jason & Lindsay's case. There were some items found near Jason's & Lindsay's bodies that did not belong to them... and the detectives have decided to release this information in the hope that it will get people to call in tips that might possibly finally solve this case! Please keep praying that this will be the key to finding the suspect(s). We need all of the prayer that we can get. :)

God bless!!!

A PDF of the Press Release shown below can be found here.

Jenner Homicide Investigation Update May 2006

Posted Tuesday, May 2, 2006 at 10:24, AM

The purpose of this press release is to update the public on the progress of the investigation and release previously undisclosed information. We are hoping this will generate additional leads, or help to clarify our interpretation of some case facts.

On August 18th, 2004 the bodies of 22-year-old Lindsay Cutshall and 26-year-old Jason Allen were located on a beach just north of Jenner, California. Cutshall and Allen each died of gunshot wounds to the head.

Both Lindsay Cutshall and Jason Allen were Christian missionaries, who had been working at a Christian Camp in El Dorado County. They were due to be married in September, 2004.

On Monday, August 16, 2004, a missing persons report was filed with the El Dorado County Sheriff's Department when the couple failed to return from a weekend trip. Their bodies were discovered two days later on Fishhead Beach, near Jenner.

The investigation into this murder has been far reaching and non-stop for the past year and a half. Detectives continue to work on this case daily. We have received assistance from several outside law enforcement agencies including the FBI, Department of Justice, Sonoma County District Attorney’s Office, and several county and municipal agencies. Hundreds of people have been interviewed as a result of tips from the public. Governor Schwarzenegger's Office has offered a $50,000 reward for information leading to the arrest and conviction of the person responsible for this crime. Despite our efforts, the case remains unsolved.

From our initial investigation at the crime scene and through on-going follow-up, we have collected boxes of evidence and other items of possible evidentiary value. We have been using much of what we have collected to further our investigation and analysis. At this point, we want to publicize some of what we have.

We are releasing some details and photos of four items located at or near the crime scene: journal writings, drawings, a hat, and a beer bottle. Additionally, we are releasing a photograph of a necklace that one of the victims may have been wearing at the time of the killing that has not been located. The photographs of these items (both web-viewable photographs as well as high-resolution photographs for downloading and reproduction) accompany this press release and can be accessed on our website,

The "Camo 40" beer bottle was located on the beach near the victims. The hat, which is a distinctive, short-brimmed, black-and white patterned hat that is partially covered with black and white fur, was located near a turn-out on Highway 1 above Fish Head Beach. We would like to become clear on how they came to be deposited at their locations.

The journal writings below are among many journal entries that were located in an informal journal left for beach visitors in a make-shift driftwood structure near the victims. Photographs of these entries accompany this release and the entries are described briefly as follows:

Writing #1
Salutation from – "Friendly neighborhood Spiderman friend & sidekick!"

Writing #2
Another salutation from, "your friendly neighbor hood friend, Spiderman, 7/25/04"
With a response, "Ha Ha Ha Spiderman, A, 8/12 A+, the Drifting Inn"

Writing #3
Contains a unique signature in the upper right corner and then contains a brief writing by "Chrissie" from "Auburn 7/10/04"

Writing #4
A rhyme talking about Santa Claus, leprechauns, and the tooth fairy.

Writing #5
This writing is dated 8/4/04 and signed by the letter "R" written uniquely. It begins with the following:
"At the Driftwood Inn, alone again, outside of myself and placid as hell..."

The handwriting styles for each of these journal entries are fairly distinctive. We would like to identify the author of each of these writings.

The drawings are of devil-like faces drawn onto driftwood that was located near the victims. We would like to know who drew these.

The photograph of the necklace depicts a necklace similar to one that Lindsay Cutshall was reportedly given in the days leading up to the killing, but was never located by detectives. This information is based upon statements from a witness in the case.

Additionally, we are still looking for the weapon used in these murders. The weapon used was a .45 caliber Marlin rifle, either a semi-automatic or a lever action. There are photographs of these types of weapons in the attached reward flier.

Finally, we are reporting for the first time that we collected DNA at the crime scene that may have been deposited by the suspect in this crime. Given the heinous nature of this crime and the difficulty the suspect would have in being able to completely isolate himself from suspicion, we feel that it is probable that someone knows more information that would lead us to the murderer of Jason Allen and Lindsay Cutshall. We would ask anyone with information or suspicions to please contact us so we can compare these suspicions with our evidence.

Photographs and descriptions of the aforementioned items accompany this release. If any of these items mean anything to you, please contact the Violent Crimes Unit of the Sonoma County Sheriff's Department at 707-565-2185. Please do not discount the relevance of your information. Your piece of information may have a significant impact on the investigation when viewed in the context of what we already know.

Once again, these items and this release may also be viewed at the Sonoma County Sheriff's Department web page under "Latest News."

For further information contact Lt. Edmonds at 707-565-2185
Report number 040818-034
Prepared by Sgt. R. Giordano

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